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2009-01-31T05:13:00.000-08:00

Check this out posted by Shooki Epidemk newest recruit to the team.

Hello BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!
As you can see the first series of EPIDEMK is up. EPIDEMK : LOVE
I hope you all enjoy it as much as I enjoyed making it.
Without any of you it will be impossible to spread the love.

EPIDEMK’s journey begins with LOVE, because that is what one requires to taking the first step of believing in a positive phenomenon and working towards it. Without LOVE, Davon Paul as well as myself would not be here taking our first steps, together, today.
Until today, I spent my life being insecure and it was my insecurities that led me eventually to be unstable. These insecurities increased as time progressed and as I held on to my struggles from the past. I never fully realized how much burden and trauma I was willingly carrying upon my back because no matter how miserable I was I couldn’t help but feel a fire inside me for I was longing for something. And in some sick way, because I had grown accustomed to feeling miserable, my misery eventually became my safety.
Time kept turning but I stood still. There were so many things that I wanted to do with my life but lacked the courage to do so because all my time was occupied by focusing on the negative, as well as failing at the things that I hadn’t even accomplished yet.
My insecurities at some point in my life won over my drive to live and I spent a very long period of my time mourning. I still am but in a more positive manner. Before my awakening, my thoughts were filled with the voices and faces of everyone who had stepped on me throughout my life, everyone who didn’t believe in me, and everyone who made me feel absolutely fucking worthless. Eventually I became convinced that I was worthless.
My flame was still there, because that is my destiny, it was just so heavily suppressed by everything unproductive that there was no room left for productivity.
I always loved art, dearly, so dearly in fact that the only time I was free was when drawing, but I never perused it because I knew the amount of energy and work that it required (and personally I no longer had that energy) and I didn’t want to put in all that work for nothing.
It was easier to dream about my accomplishments then to actually try and achieve them.
Through my period of mourning I found myself increasingly getting more impatient with feeling sorry for myself as well as holding onto every horror story that I had gone through. My mind frame and my thoughts shifted. I began seeing the positive in my misery and my loneliness because I truly began to believe that the events that occurred in my life were what I needed in order to be the person I am today.
I accepted and appreciated my past. Especially the most painful moments and noticeably began becoming happier and more confident. My positive outlook pushed me off my sorry ass and brought my drive back. I began drawing again as well as actively busting my ass in all my classes the best that I could. No appreciation came out of anyone for my efforts but that didn’t matter anymore. What mattered now was that I appreciated myself. I kept thinking positive and when I came across new barriers I slowed down and learnt to work around them.
As I progressed in school and increased the amount of time I devoted to my art, I gained a natural high. Looking at everything in a positive outlook made it so much EASIER to move forward and smile towards the future.
My biggest challenge came about two weeks ago when Davon “EPIDEMK” Paul approached me about EPIDEMK. We sat down and discussed what it is that we wanted to gain out of our adventure and whom we wanted to inspire along the process. EVERYONE! WE WANT TO INSPIRE EVERYONE!
In the past if I were approached with this project I would have declined, because I was not ready to come out as an artist. How could I express my views to the world if I didn’t believe in myself?
I needed to wake up from my stage of denial if I was going to go through with EPIDEMK and it was EPIDEMK that forced me to do so. So I sucked it up my fears, smoked a joint and sat down with my pencil and paper in the dark and drew for hours.
The LOVE series is the beginning of expressing to others the POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING, the POWER OF LOVE, and the rewards that come from spreading it.
What we all need to understand together is that if there’s anything we want to do, we just have to go out there and do it. NO IF’s, BUT’s, or I’M SCARED… JUST DO IT.
EPIDEMK wont be launched until the summer but until then we have this facebook account so that you may track our progress as well as hopefully inspire yourself in the process to do what it is you love.
Making ART, spreading a positive message and promoting imagination (through both sound and visuals) is EPIDEMK’s love, collaborating with others is another love of ours, and inspiring you along the way is our mission. Even if it means that we have to fail.
There will be no regrets as long as we are doing what we love.
We’re looking forward to sharing this journey with you.
Love always
SHOOKI EPIDEMK.

2009-01-23T00:12:00.000-08:00

be happy....

Help Maybe

2009-01-19T08:45:00.000-08:00

So I was listening to the song Empress by Serani, thoughts are bouncing around in my head. I have been praying to God to help me to maintain. The evils and people trying to hurt me, I must keep my guard up. Now to me as a person I got a guard up like fort knox. Got the sniper rifle at the door, it's a scary thing. I think it a bad thing you know, do you think its a bad thing?

I been back on that Kid Cudi track Day N Night, and it seems to bring back the tension from the time the song first came out. He said in a line He seems alive though he is feeling blue. To everyone around me they see me breathing but I am just moving in search of, well she knows. One thing that My dad pointed out to me is that in your pictures you seem lonely.

Blah @ That

Anyway so Myrtyr just came on by Shyne. at the top of the song he said "Yo, living in fuckin' hell, nigga die, might be better." Sometimes when things get hard it's like would I be better off..That is just me lost in my thoughts. See what tragedy does.
I miss Marcus, makes me wonder what he would tell me if he was here today. I was in preschool, I remember the days clearly. I close my eyes and I walk around in a thought just observing. He is the cliche story bout the kid that is doing good and not like the others, but the company he kept. Sometimes I wake up in cold sweats at night because I would dream about the night when he was shot. I wasn't there but why is it a dream, one time I jumped infront of the bullet...

Moving on to something else, More or Less I am a human being learning. Wish I was perfect at times then maybe some of the pain I endure wouldn't come about.

It feels at times it is just me against the world. You know what I believe that it is why because of what I learned, not to count on anyone even you closest family member. When I learned that it killed me, because I realized the lie that was told to me. In the end it doesn't matter though, that's what Linkin Park said.

Let me give yall something happy though, I am still working on stuff. My little sis is growing, she is talking a lot. Following me around the house like she is my shadow. She took a while to come though, but she kept me in New York. If it wasn't for here I wouldn't still be in New York City. Some of ya'll probably like why the hell would you want to leave New York. I'll save that for another day because I'm trying to end this off on a happy note. Yeah she is a happy baby. My problem is how to do I help her cope(sp) with reality.

Before I go, I am still writing so I am just waiting to get into the studio, But one thing out all this I just seen a picture of a hippo that made me smile.

until next time

2009-01-17T09:39:00.000-08:00

SO I am wonder what the hell....

That's All

get your picture face onnnn.

2009-01-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

The Stylistics - You Are Everything (Live) - The Stylistics

So I came across this song a couple of weeks ago while talking to Paul. I know my grandma love this song, and I just feel it going together with what I wrote. I write what I feel, a lot of the things I write and put out has two meanings. There is the main meaning which most people may get, but then there is the under lying meaning too. So this song has help me to bring together a complete idea.

So expect some stuff from me.

Until next time.

R.I.P to Money Mike and Mike Willoughby
Miss Ya'll Both

2009-01-14T11:43:00.000-08:00

I am feeling like carl thomas right now...

Been listening to a lot of music, but it brings a memory back.
I don't burden no one with my emotions nor problems so I guess this one I have to figure it out on my own. She knows that I love her, or atleast I hope she does.
3 times I struck out in the championship game.
It plagues my mind.

Let me get to this though, so I have made my return to blogspot. Anyone miss me? decided I needed to get back here so I can write more. Update some on what I am doing. Today I am meeting up with Revolutionary Charisma. So let's see how its going to turn out.

Shoutout to Jay Adams he is coming out some material real soon ya dig!

I think i am done but I am going to leave you with this.
I conceal my pain so I may seem indestructable. I am strong but I bleed, I am human so I also fear the unknow.

2009-01-13T21:02:00.000-08:00

So what in the hell is up with ya!

Women Confuses me.

Please comment with some instructional directions maybe I will understand.

Signed,
Epidemik

2009-01-13T19:44:00.000-08:00

I keep on saying i am back, that I am back.... I am back this time I figured a solution to write blogs ok. LOL.

It feels good to be on blogger again

2008-12-03T17:07:00.000-08:00

So I am back on blogger been MIA for a minute. I will still be updating slowly but My twitter is active though. Anyway three more weeks of school and I get a vacation from school. Hence I said from school, things are moving and things are good I guess.

Anyway Check out my show tonight http://party934.com @ 10 pm est

2008-11-30T22:38:00.001-08:00

Neglection of the blog....I have been working stay tuned....Oh I have a new time slot for the online radio show.

2008-11-18T04:40:00.000-08:00

My Understanding of the events around me is something of that which no one truly understands. They may think I don't see what's going on but I do.

2008-11-11T10:18:00.001-08:00

Eh I have been neglecting the blog, any I am coolin. I have been working on stuff oh and there will be an update to Epidemk.com.

2008-11-08T05:12:00.000-08:00

New Day Up Early...Out The House...New Perspective...There is a change...

2008-11-07T21:42:00.000-08:00

I guess I had stupid written on my forehead, back to the ways of the old. People say I analyze way too much, well at least that is what they used to say. My mom once said that I shouldn't be mean, but eh I let that go. I don't believe in being nice anymore, trust is hard to come by. Best believe you going to know what I have to say if you don't like well I guess this is so long, I am tired of this. All the BS and fronts put on by people. I am tired of empty words, really I am tired, I am through with it.

If you care you care if you don't do me a favor don't act like you do.

Thank You,
Davon

2008-11-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

I dig the fact that Obama won.

Maybe another time I will go into detail...

Right Now I am tired as hell and trying to figure out how am I going to eat lunch tomorrow.

i dropped 60 bucks on RL today. Hopefully I get this job.

2008-11-02T23:45:00.000-08:00

Ahh they thought wrong they did. It's lovely...Why Did I awake from my sleep...

Anyway up, up and away....

Shout outs to the team. Shout out to my manager makes life easier at times.

anyway The Epidemik Experiences shall return ya dig.

They are in the works.

Oh I will be doing a new podcast show soon through my school.

well back to the music.

til I return

2008-11-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

So what's up, I know you are probably saying where the hell have I been. I haven't post since the last one, and yes I know I am Captain Obvious lol. I am on the borderline of a good and bad mood. So today can go either way so lets see how that turns out. The picture up there was taking by my homie Ty. Be sure to check him out on myspace. So the kid is hard at work, right now bloggin and doing my radio show that comes on every saturday from 8 am to 10 am eastern standard time. This week was ok I guess but eh yeah. So I guess I shall return later on today with an update for yall hopefully.

Enjoy your day

2008-10-29T14:51:00.000-07:00

You People are nosey, just thought I let I should let you know that.

Anyway today was ok I guess, got a new domain and all that stuff so its a wrap...

So yeah I'll be back before you know it, things are moving fast and I am trying to afford to live. I'll be back before you know it though. I seen your miss calls on my cell, I know you see me on TV hear me on the radio. When ever they ask if I have a girl I refer to her as my angel. Keep her protected from the press but she seems to not want to be in my spotlight. She just wants to be in a league all on her own. My only fear is losing, and falling into a slump I can't get out of. Claim to be able to kick the habit, yet I am not the only one who has their mind on you. Then those who try to take away the joy from my life. Yet they don't know me, but yet strength is the only option.

I like to write, yes and it shall come out in music yes it will. I am currently amazed at how I show emotions...Like I was in a session the other day and people noticed I wasn't myself. Goes to show much people really pay attention. I used to yearn to be understood but now I could careless hence the fact to my quietness. I do not fear what people think of me I fear of the way they perceive me because it can affect my cash flow. Yeah I may be on the ropes, but I rare ask for help. If I fall in a whole i would die to climb out...It may be a hard climb but I would do it. I tend to be prideful but is it really that though. Certain people i can't ask for help. Some people I just don't want to feel like I owe them anything because some people may call on favors that may not be in your favor. Seems I found a clearview in my mind to write on something through the randomness in the begining...Oh yeah I know I am not a very good writer, yet you try to understand. Is it bad that I find it hard to ask for help and just rather suffer. I have been taught to get it on my own though, so I guess I don't know.

I have a basketball game tonight against the security guards it shall be fun.

So I am something like a robot when it comes to certain things. Like sometimes I don't know how to react to certain emotions because I don't know how to bring a smile through any situation. Yet I tend to always turn frowns upside down. So could it be just having confidence in myself to be able to help a person out. Maybe it is just a problem that I cannot deal with feeling like i am failing at being somethng.

Eh my only fear to be alone...That's worst then death because it's death while you walk the earth...

Epidemk

2008-10-28T19:50:00.000-07:00

So this is just going to be random I kind of do not what to talk about, but I do want to write a blog.

Human Nature a interesting concept brought on through the theory of man. It's human nature in which why we do certain things, or can it be that they just use it as an excuse because they do not understand why. That's like saying it depends on what shit happens. Is it truely human nature when it comes to survival of the fittest, or is just greed. Well I don't Know.

Congratulation Neek, I am proud of you homie.

On another note I just realized I didn't have any dinner. Oh well just going to embrace it. Bread and butter I guess.

Anyway so right now Live my life is playing in my itunes. Anyway why are people embarrassed of being broke. That doesn't make you less of a person though, and it is not a good feeling. STill though I rock what I can rock you know.

So I just want to afford to live that's all and that is what i am going to leave you with...

goodnight

2008-10-27T22:29:00.000-07:00

So here we go again another day. I an written this on my way home on the subway. Was just listening to robocop by kanye west. It is pretty dope, also the jay-z remix with cold play is another hot one. Music is really innovative for real. It is pretty dope I can't wait for the albums. Also john legend has an album coming out also which is type dope. I am going to check it out. Not much of a fan, but he has some tracks I can rock too. So I think I shall do an album review and post it up.

Anyway goodnight...

Catch you in the am....

2008-10-26T22:58:00.001-07:00

Hello and welcome again

So my definition of being broke, is sharing a bag of chips with your sisters and brothers for breakfast. Wondering where your next is going to come from and will it fill you. Hearing you sneakers squeak when you walk and not being able to get a new pair when you want to. Broke is eating bread and butter toast a few nights straight. that's broke...Then you got the other side of it. The other side when you lose your will to go on. When that happens you are definitely broke, you my friend have hit what we call the project mentality. This is when you have no hope and then find way or only see that a working person and a person who sits on they ass all day are one in the same. Why because they come back to the same life and the one that is doing can;t afford better.

Two kinds of Rich, those that have money is the physical kind. On the other hand I say I am rich in will and determination. No matter what short comings come I still continue on with what I set out to do. I am stubborn you could say but none the less I am not willing to give in.

eh...i lost my train of thought...until when ever I decide to post again.

2008-10-23T21:24:00.000-07:00

So today was a rough start. This morning I couldn't connect to the net on my phone. Man this phone tweaks me. Something is always happening to me with cells phones. It is a real bother...wait I said that already.

Anyway back in full effect. Why the hell am I running on fumes. Oh wait I got bills to pay, trying to afford to live. The Rappinlounge team is strong. That's the truth man. Time to get this paper.

So I was listening to Jay, to all of you who quote make sure you understand. Stop trying to act like you're smart, but yet you complain bout being broke instead of doing something. Stop think about it, formulate and materialize. Quiet mouths don't eat but I'll observe soak it up like a sponge then take ya spot at the dinner table. I ain't a dog I don't eat table scraps. I'm my only supressor ya dig. You down for the team then show it. No slackers allowed ya dig.

Anyway so for anything you need from me don't ask me directly. Here is the email you use to contact me for my services bookings@rappinlounge.com or for graphics web and film email RLdesigns@rappinlounge.com

You'll get price quotes and scheduling too. Yes I am not taking your questions bout that stuff. I got a middleman now. They'll handle mostly everything. So I am taking over with em. On some charm power of three type jump off.

So back to the task at hand. I remember this lame wanted to ride my coat tail. The evil in him you a grown man get your own you leech. Yeah I'm cool until I blow my top like a volcano and just leave you at the front door. Yeah I was born yesterday but I stayed up. The whole night. So when you coming at me come right.

I don't count on no one but myself. I'll get when I need, cause I work miracles. I figure it out watch the next thing I do. Bout to make the press ya dig.

Baby(Make Me Say)[Produced By: Ace da Vinci] - Jay Adams

2008-10-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

Dreams put on hold due to the funds to finish out something that I started that I wanted. So as I fade back to black becoming scarce again. Just focusing on getting this money by any means necessary. I won't know what sleep is no more. Won't know what a social life is anymore. Just me getting this paper to afford to live through this recession without landing behind bars. So now its time to tap into my resources to get things together. I feel somethings are going to be said that's going to end up causing rifts. I am at a point to where I am going to explode and its not safe for anyone. I'm up against the wall, and I'm fighting my way off it. Could I be unstable at this point? I doubt it because if so then I will never make it through this. Aint no one to blame but myself when it all comes to it. Politics as uaual with all this and this recession. They make it hard, to make it seem like we have to resort to something else. Makes me think about all that's going on and all the things that happened that contributed to the situation I am in. It really pisses me off...you are really in this world all by yourself.

That was a thought, yes a though last week. It wasn't a cry for help. It was just a taste of reality. I don't want hand outs, but if you need some graphics I can be the one you call to get some hot stuff done, but it comes at a price. Don't expect me to go easy cause I got to live too.

I amaze myself with the things that I do, but now what is it the skills that I have if I cannot get anywhere with them well not that I can't but if people do not know I have the skills. Well that Is going to change I find light to keep me moving, I am the undying soul that pulls back on a thread of string. I am a fighter, one that goes strong. I remember back at westinghouse I said I will not stop til I can't breathe. there is no rest unless I get what is needed to be done done.

So be on the look out for team epidemk. Yes its coming soon, and I think i am going to change up my blog layout soon. anyway so here is what I meant to post today...

Ok so today was eh. Didn't accomplish anything I set out to do. Was set back due to a memory lapse. I just wonder does it make a person made or makes them even more upset when it doesn't get to the person that made the mistake. When the person understands what was done? Eh I remain calm I guess, and just chill and be patient. I was taught in school to listen to a persons thought then make you points. Sometimes I just don't feel like waiting. Guess its just the aggressor in me, or the feeling that no one cared about my thoughts or what I have to say. Then it can be from being cut off from not being to express myself. Then it becomes no you are going to listen to what I have to say. I am tired of just not getting my point across. None of that going on around here. Now it feels different when the tables turn....

Anyway as I went across the manhattan bridge today anything by jay came on. Track is hot, in my opinion it goes hard. Yeah but I don't think that's the point anyway just random thoughts.

Anyway quote to speak on today or saying more or less, "who are you for me to kiss your ass." One thing I have learn from going to westinghouse is that no one is irreplaceable. Meaning you do a good job for me but if you messing up after a while I will kick you to the curb. Also know your position ya dig. For all you trying to read into this as it being to someone stop reading too hard. Take a break from your star bucks moment; trying to be all intelligence trying to make sense out of nothing. I mention names or I write in a way that the person knows. Don't expect your name to be in my mouth for your gain. Ahh today I am not staying on task. My mind is just all webbed up. I am lost in the moment as I write this blog. The music banging my ear drums to inspire and change my mood. One thing I notice is the type of music I listen to depending on the mood. The emotion tends to always match up with how I feel at the time. Music a significant part to my way of life. I think I shall invest in a book to write em in.

So moving on from that what else is on my mind? Ms fat booty, another track. Its funny how a female and just use a dude. I've been victim to it, so have no doubts just let time take its course and I don't get caught off guard. I kind of move differently, smarter. I don't waste time know when to make an exit and know when to stick around. Remember you actions speak louder than words. I doubt anyone is that naive to see things going, well I know I am not. It would be stupid to think that it's not noticeable. My kindness is not weakness it just mask my meanest as I trap you with honey. Now I just gave you a piece of me. So you can go on and say hello to the bad guy. That's why I am so cool as a fan. I put you through so many test but you would never know. I don't really get mad but I can yell and get my point across and put it in a way to make you feel bad. They say knowledge is power but they forgot to say that knowledge of logos is power. What is logos? Go google it..or pay me something then I got you. Ahh lost my train of thought.

2008-10-20T12:00:00.001-07:00

Hi today we are going to do it a little different. Today we have a that's racist segment in my blog. Today in class I sat down ate my overly buttered bagel which was soo good by the way. Anyway there was a white girl sitting in the seat next to me. Now her phone rang and she walked out. Common courtesy? I think not! After I was finished with my bagel I went to the bathroom and she was right outside the door. I look at her and kept moving because she was right outside the door. She was still on the phone and went back inside the class room. When I got back in not only is she sitting in a different seat away from me but she is still on the phone while other people are in the room. Oh and did I mention she walked out with her bag. Interesting.

Anyway to go on, I think I am over my cold finally. I am so tired though but I will get some rest when I get on winter break. Today in class we have an observer so I guess the professor is going to be on her best behavior. I think she has nothing to worry about though. She gave me back my two papers and I got a B on one and a B- on the other I just need to find someone to proof read my work. I think I would be great, I know I am not the best writer but at least I realize my faults and work on them some how. I am kind of hard on myself when it comes to the academic part of school. I am not as confident as I am with my major studio class. I get by though. I am excited bout two projects I am working on. One being for my major studio class, and experimental video. So on break today in class I got a large smoothly. Strawberry Banana, it taste good, its real good. We watched metropolis, a silent film I seen before. To tell you the truth I'm not interested in watching again. I have this paper to do to watch two films. I need to get the film list though.

So today I found out that CS4 came out so I shall acquire that today when I get home. Currently at the moment I am about to get into some programming. So I will get at ya'll later.

Peace,
EpMk

2008-10-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

So, I am here again posting another blog. Long weekend where work will go over into the week. Grand it is, work is fun you know. You got to hustle to get them dollars. Right now I am taking a break from pro tools right now. Was preparing this beat for my school project. Which Ya'll wont see for a minute til all the paper work goes through. You know that orphen law is in effect now, and I think that it is so grimey. Anyway I am working on a few projects, and I am really focused on my career and Rappin Lounge Being a main source of income. It's going to happen though I just have that feeling you know. This next project that I am working on and I think it will be a crazy project. Always working on something. Well I have to with the size of the team that i currently have but we all work together smoothly.

Well Time to adress something:

Thanks to the Lames if it wasn't for you then I would probably still deal with people like ya'll.

Yeah and the people that joined my site, yet they threw dirt on my name. it's cool though I am happy that ya'll support me by becoming members on my site. I told ya'll I wouldn't dispear.

Ahh I think that is enough of that.

Anyway I am a ghost ya dig,
Peace

2008-10-16T12:56:00.000-07:00

Eh..I do not know what to post. One thing though I am tired as hell.

Thee end.

Oh, You are what you are. So don't be surprised but what you become because it's been in you from the start.

Peace.
Epidemik

2008-10-13T19:27:00.000-07:00

Ahh so today I am sitting in class and the teacher can not get the projector to work. I think they should train the teacher on how to use the technology here. It sure is entertaining though. Its like they remind me of my grandma. She called av dude to help her out though. So hopefully with her showing what she wants to show will help things move along.

The studio session to mix down check out my melody went good. I believe in the song, don't would of been possible if it wasn't for the session today though. So I am starting a new company soon just have to get the bread together though. Its all going to happen, I'm determine to get everything done. I am building my little empire. The quiet storm is coming and when it comes it going to come hard. Things don't just land in your lap you have to work hard and put yourself where you need to be. My skills are the bait to get me where I want to be. I am the fisher man ya dig. Well I am about to get into some homework.

2008-10-13T00:29:00.000-07:00

The weekend was chilled, I am getting over this cold. I hate being sick, but I am still out and about. Slept for a minute last night like ten hours. Longest I have slept in a minute though. Sunday is a day of work though. I have this paper to write which is a draft for my midterm for my major for my BFA. Sat I was in the studio again chillin. Shoutout to Spiz check him out on myspace http://myspace.com/spinozaworld he recored some fire lastnight, Phantom produced the tracks. I am going to work on getting him on the show soon. I am currently looking for a film crew to start doing the youtube shows. So it looks like big projects are going to happen. So things are going to be poppin.

2008-10-09T23:27:00.000-07:00

I got something to say, if you are 30 plus and just trying to start your rap career stop it. If see Jay is still rapping at 30 something doesn't mean you can do it. Key word in the last sentence still, it takes time to pay your dues? It ain't a grind. You can grind while twiddling your thumbs. You have to pay your dues. Its more than just a hustle, it becomes your life to accomplish your dreams. Life is short don't wait too long to try and get somewhere. Start now, not later but right now. No one is going to give you a hand out. If I didn't have the skills that I have right now I would be sitting on this train writing a blog about those that are doing. It is scary being broke at thirty because no one is going to help me. You have to do for self. I did for myself and this is where I am at.

Stay focus on your goals, don't just settle if you can achieve better. Live your life don't stress keep working and you will be known for what you want to be known for.

2008-09-27T13:38:00.000-07:00

You Know a lot but you are really not that smart. There are a bunch of people out there that knows a lot when they really know nothing at all. There are the people who claim they know about the struggles just by sitting in a class learning about it. I don't like to compare struggles I do not know what you go through nor do you know mine so how can you judge based upon a persons idea or opinion towards a subject?

Think about it,
EpMk

2008-09-26T11:09:00.001-07:00

So I just thought of something. Just read this one sentence...

Their higher ups know what I am not, but they promote to their peers under them to fear us cause we are this and we are that.

Think on it.

2008-09-26T04:30:00.001-07:00

C.R.E.A.M. - Wu Tang Clan

So I said last night while in my room thinking to myself, "I am going to take over the world." How might I do this, well I do have a site named after me, and will be posting my life on there through Youtube videos. Yeah I may do an episode here and there but I am not really looking for a reality TV show, but if I'm offered some dough I'd do it. It may cross peoples mind to why I would do it, and here is the reasonWe are all banana fish, once you get a certain amount you get used to it and want more. I also believe that survival of the fittest. (sidetrack) So I just got a text message from Ayanna saying she going to fight me...No good morning or anything jeezum. I must have done something bad. (back on track) Anyway where was I? Yeah so it's survival of the fittest but that term has change so much over the times. We find other ways to kill the top person, and today we just do something to outshine the next. What motivates most the recognition, the money, and us to be the best is the feeling of being the best, which is probably the firs thing on our minds. Anyway I am going to end it there.

2008-09-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

Swagger Like Us (Ft. Kanye West, Jay-Z & Lil Wayne) - T.I.

I am in a chill mode this morning, today some two events going on. Oh I also began to work on a new website. When there is a design there will be more posted, on the site so ya'll can check it out because ya'll know that's going to be the first assignment I give ya'll. When that time comes it will be posted here. So its been 8 years running for me since I have started Rappin Lounge. That is really picking up, and we might even have a new artist under management soon. I don't remember if I mentioned this before but now RL has two contact locations, which is Cali and New York. I was thinking back on how things went, in high school I wasn't even thinking bout managing or anything of that nature. I was just making mix tapes and now I am making podcast and people in school come up to me and tell me about my podcast. That's dope, and it is a different feeling walking around school and people call me out just to say keep doing what you doing. There will always be the haters and the ones who will say you screwed them. It's human nature so it doesn't bother me; I know ya'll really love it. That's why there is a thin borderline between love and hate. oh one more thing i just hit 2 million hits i wonder if i will hit 3 million hits for my site again this month. Oh look out for the new campaign, I wont explain it but I am just going to do it.

til I post again

2008-09-22T22:46:00.000-07:00

Ready Or Not - The Fugees

Are you prepared to experience what I have been working towards for the past 8 years of discovering myself and defining my skills. I have come a long way and now its time for ya'll to feel my true skill. It was said the 08 is my year and it's turning to be true. Just stay tune and watch I'll be on youtube and your favorite magazine.

Thing got fuzzy and you don't remember me, so I don't remember you.

2008-09-18T23:34:00.000-07:00

Yes I see the time. I work hard, I like to get things done. Things are changing, and now new protocols are being created. So now I am just finishing up another podcast mix tap. I am not too sure if I have mentioned them here though, but I am getting good feedback from it on my web forum. Expect a new youtube video from me soon, just got an assignment that Requires me to give an description of who I am. I think it is going to turn out good though. I am going to make a post on my forum and get them to say one thing about me to include it in the project, or I may just get one person. I would like to get someone they wouldn't expect me to get. No one expected me to get a shout out from a dj at a party. They sleep on me, but I do move in silence and the next step isn't known to many. Anyway that is all for this morning I guess.

EpMk

Song of the moment:
Hustle Hustle - Jugglez feat. G-Swagger

2008-09-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

So I am so focused on getting things done you know. Sometimes I just sit and wonder bout things like wow how far have I came since I set out to do what I wanted to do. From a young age to saying I wanted to go into graphics and web design, and I said that before a fireman or astronaut. I just wanted to imitate my dad because he was doing it and I just developed a love for it. Music i love it, I learned how to edit video, and program as my way of getting into the music industry. I am not the hottest rapper but at times I claim to be the hottest poet. Well I am gone for now.

Song of the day is:
Changes - TuPac

2008-09-17T00:06:00.000-07:00

She is the seed to my garden of happiness.

I felt I should start out with that, an happy thought. I have been having that a lot lately, I am even writing in my blog more. So what's up with EpK? a lot is going on and I am enjoying it. I am going to be writing a lot of new poems once I get a notebook. I have some inspiration :). So today I chilled with one of my homies during my break while i worked on a coming soon page. I wish i had after effects on my laptop to work on it though.

song of the day:
Perfect Timing - Jimmy Cozier

2008-09-10T21:04:00.000-07:00

So I am back again with another blog. Why that sounds like its a painful process lol. Anyway today was kind of long, I am tired as hell. I can't go to sleep anyway too much to do and not enough time in a day. So I am about to post this question on my forum to see what responses I get back from the members of my site (http://rappinlounge.com/epidemk). In the next post I might post some of there responses, better yet you should go and join it and reply to it too :). I am in a good state at the current moment really, something is about to pop off though. So I am being patient though because I don't want to rush things but things are falling into place you. If you have been keeping up with my post when I do post I am very limited in the info that I give out about myself, hmm I am trying to think of a good metaphor to give yall. Anyway I have someone that puts smile on my face dispite whats going on. I love snickers and so does she :)/ Moving on from that school is smooth and I continue to aspire. I wont stop can't stop. Oh and I shall prove to my dad that I wont need to get a nine to five.

Anyway homework time.

EpMk

2008-08-30T11:33:00.000-07:00

So things are looking up, the site is about to launch and become public. I am about to send out a warning to myspace and let them know that I am on my come up. I am Going To war with them. Expect a youtube video to appear sometime soon, and its going to be crazy and done the right way. Got the look down and everything so we will see what will happen. Today I have a studio session well tonight actually and its going to be dope, wonder if they are going to use the hook that I wrote. It would be dope, things are still up and down just trying to be patient for something to pop off. When it happens you will know though, maybe before I even get a chance to post to my blog.

Catch up with yall later,

EpMk

2008-08-15T01:50:00.000-07:00

This world brings you up and it brings you down. Long fight to the top, human beings make mistakes, I just dont let it phase me. Just learn from em you know. My dad put me on to something today, and while thinking of it most of society may just look at me as an ignorant black man trying to break the barrier. Ha when I took the aptitude test the results came back and said I'm a thief....

EpidemiK

life's to short to be mad, enjoy those around you while you can. You live and you learn, you grow together you grow apart.

2008-08-09T22:32:00.000-07:00

It Feels Good to know people believe in what you do. It's an inspiration, but when someone believes and loses belief it brakes my heart.

Epidemik

2008-08-09T00:16:00.000-07:00

So it's 3 am in the morning or around it. So I check my boy Marc blog out and to see how close he was to a shoot out. Tonight could of been a night that I would of never heard from him again. True story never know when something will be taken from you. Like recent events in life and going through knowing someone I was cool with dying and just being a couple of years older than me. Never truely got a chance to make his mark in the world and was just starting life. I don't hold anything in and I just let it out ad live life. Not knowing when I am going to go but I shall do my best to touch as many people as I can. I want to impact the world and I will one way or another.

Epidemk.com coming soon and more

2008-08-05T20:12:00.000-07:00

So I am preparing to release well Launch my site. Can't wait but I am being patient. Yeah So I did a video well not did one but edited one and the edit came out fiya!.

check it out it's Called Save The Children by D.c.Q

So keep posted to the blog and everything is going to jump off. Shout out to Ace, got to get his myspace up there on the links.

Coming Soon

It's coming

2008-08-04T22:47:00.001-07:00

So yeah it's been a minute since I graced your eyes with my prolific words and ish like that. Yeah I have been on my grind, I need to get somewhere to be in a better position. I don't know what decisions I make are the right ones but it just feels right. There is a lot on my mind yet to be discussed, and like things must be said at a point. Anyway I am gone for now check back again when I like letting you attempt to get into my mind.

My Bio for the radio show I am going to be doing

2008-07-03T22:55:00.000-07:00

epidemik born and raised in brooklyn on various types of music that range from jazz, disco, hip hop, rock and more. He has a love for music, and promotes all kinds of music. He is the owner of his own corporation Rappin Lounge that manages and promotes artist. He is now taking the opportunity to expand the horizon of his company by hosting and releasing mix tapes and reaching to the mass public by any means necessary.

What you think???

Any way I will be doing a radio show, I am mad though that progress on the new site has been haulted because the servers are down but hey once back up I can finish up work you know.

Peace talk to yall soon,

Leave me some comments on snapvine ya dig.

Been working hard

2008-06-18T02:30:00.000-07:00

So I have been working hard on a lot of different things. Putting these projects together and getting a show together. The redesign for my student site is coming along together good. I am also adding a members feature to make it a social networking site also. I started about two weeks ago and I have a lot of done. So the mix tape is going to drop soon keep an eye for that. I am really in a good mood. So check back later for an update.

New Changes

2008-06-08T16:45:00.000-07:00

As you can see there has been some changes to the site. Right now the place where I host my site is down so that is the reason why you are brought directly to my blog. I am currently listening to Evanescence from off my ipod. Added some new blog link to the right. New people I have come across. So I guess that's all for now. Nothing interesting is really going on you know. Check back shortly or later for any updates or influence talk.

2008-05-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

Someone who sits and does nothing will not just have an opportunity Knock on their door. If you want to be a part of an certain entertainment field or what ever field you want to go into get involved with it anyway possible.

Signed,
E

2008-05-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

So it has been a few days since I posted last. At the moment I do have a lot on my mind and just thinking of ways to let it out. First thing is first, so I have sudden been hit up by someone who I haven't heard from in a while. They kind been around, seen them come around but been silent until now. Makes me wonder the motive behind it you, and on my mind is that I have been taken advantage of because of my kindness. I am at a point where I am through with it and can come off wrong at times, but a lot of it is just picking up on things sometimes that I don' like and would state it right then and there. I am not your welcome mat, I am human so if you wonder why I act a certain way towards you think about it before asking me.

In other news in the life of me, things are bumpy but its just writing all these proposals and planning stuff. I am on my grind and I know i am close to where I want to be. I have four more semesters left in school so I am feeling great. I have to wake up early in the morning, but I want to finish this up though. The quote for the day hmm lets see, as you may also notice I type as the thoughts come together. Excuse any typos, please note I do come back and edit them. The quote is "I wear a mask 24/7, because Halloween seems to be everyday for me during the times" Meaning things aren't what they always seem to be. I have come to a point in life where I don't get excited because of certain things until they go through. That is my way of protecting myself from disappoint from which my life has really drilled me about and taught me a lesson. One more thing I would like to say before I go is that Halloween has a totally different meaning from what it is today. Halloween means the eve before all saints day, and you are supposed to truly be in custom as your favorite saint. Now I do not know how it become demonic with all the symbols it has today but that might be something I shall look into.

Lysha Hope everything turns out for the best for you I know things seem rough but you'll pull through.

Signed,
E

2008-05-22T15:14:00.000-07:00

So...today was a long day, so been working since I have got up. I am kind of sleepy and I am starving. Patiently waiting on the response on on what I just wrote up. I just want to get it done and have it be at the best that it could be. Everything has to be on point and no slip ups you know. Anyway to carrying on I hate sarcasm... I guess that is all for right now. Check back later though to get an update though.

Signed,
E

2008-05-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

Hey how are ya'll doing? It's been a couple of days since my last post. I really need to get a digital camera to start doing a video blog and stuff like that. it's way better than typing and I can just upload it to Youtube and post it here. Writing a proposal takes some work. Kudos to those who do it for a living, I understand why it cost so much. So right now I am still not finished but my Dad is going over it right now to see what can be added and changed. I thought my first all nighter would be for school ain't that funny.

Signed,
E

2008-05-18T16:14:00.000-07:00

So..Celebrated my birthday yesterday and it was cool. Next year is going to be bigger. it was good, had some friends out, and had an artist there doing cartoon portraits of everyone. It was pretty dope. So now I have to get back into work mode and finish up the proposal for the July 4th event that I want to do. It is going to be a crazy event though I am excited about it. This summer is going to be crazy though. In June if all goes well I will be at summer jam, and on the west coast. Travel for Free FTW!! (quick def intion for FTW... FTW = For The Win.) This summer seems like it is going to be another big one for me. Going back to last year around this time I was able to be in the Kat Deluna Music video, and Did film work for Star Power, and also traveled with them. So what can be in store for this summer???

2008-05-16T21:12:00.000-07:00

On the come up, or rise to power there are two types of people that you in counter, well not actually two types but just people you would come across. So I shall continue, the two types of people I will be mentioning in this post is the people that are around that shows you love for what you are trying to do, and then the ones that are hating on you as you do you. Now the haters normally stay haters. The other ones who show you love are the ones that will turn on you when you get some where. You just have to pick and choose who you keep around you. You really have to feel people out and surround yourself with positive people. What I mean by that is look for people who have things in common with you like if you a go getta, hang out with go gettas. Just wanted to say that, just some incidents that have occurred opened my eyes to some things. Yeah so that kind of irked me...

Signed,
E

2008-05-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

Today was cool, like a breeze on he beach :). Like breeze on a beach is the quote for today. So I am in a good mood, no really i am in a good mood. Good and Mood ends in ood, bet you a lot of did not realize it. Eh well this went way off but anyway goodnight lol.

Signed,
E

2008-05-14T19:59:00.001-07:00

So what do you when you come across a woman of power? So may feel intimidated, I rarely get intimidated really come to think of it. I am more impressed than intimidated. I actually think it's quite attractive, but what kills it is if they have a bad attitude or act like their shit don't stink. Now it's one thing to be in a position of power, but to think that you are better than me I wont go for that. I pee and sit on the toilet like you do. So that shyness I sort of got a handle on it lol. I was always advised to take it slow and you know that is what I plan to do. Anyway that was just rant to give more of me to yall...Sound like I have a relationship haha. Anyway today was kind of long kind of stressful, and you know what that is life.

So there are twist and turns, negative influences that are trying to hold me down....

Can't let it fall I shall find the light and be the light for many more ya dig.

signed,
E

2008-05-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

We will either find a way or make one, said by Hannibal. That's the quote of the day. So that is what I shall move by. I am going to find my way to the top, or make one. That is my determination on how I feel about getting into this music industry. I want to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday(may 12th). So I might have to do jury duty...pfft at that I shall find a way out of it. That will put a damper in my plans for this summer. Hmm so I really don't have much to say...Well maybe I shall post something later.

2008-05-10T08:35:00.000-07:00

Does beef still make record sales??? In my opinion I think any beef between artist is rig. It also seems to surface when ever an album is about to drop. To tell you the truth I think it is meaningless there is so much beef that it looks like a death match out there. Survival of the fittest really shows, and you know that is human nature. it's in us to destroy each other for self gain. We do it in all aspects of life no matter who you are. You could be someone who is against the ruthless ways of a business man to take him down or lose profit. In all reality when it all comes down to it the person who leads the revolt is the one that wants to be on top. Just a little morning talk be easy.

E

2008-05-09T21:17:00.000-07:00

I don't get excited unless it's on paper, that is my quote for the day. Take in, try and understand it. if you don't the smart thing to do is question it. You know I feel a person who claims a person ask a dumb question is wrong for saying so. I say that because maybe the person didn't really pick up on what you were saying. I can honestly say I have looked at some people when explaining things to them and they don't get the simplest things. I can also honestly say that I will do it again after this blog but reflect on it later. Maybe by now some of you are saying he is a hypocrite, but that is where you are wrong you see. When in the moment of things you tend to forget the order on which you intended. Some situations you can control this and remember and at other times it just happens you know. Well enough of that stuff.

I have been listening to this heartbeat track by Madonna, GinaRe put me onto it. It is a pretty dope track. I suggest you get her album it's not bad. been listening to that along with Ryan leslie new song featuring Cassie, Addicted. the beat is raw. Anyway that's just some of the stuff i have been listening to. So Anyway got to get back to work on stuff.

Oh latest with me just filming and editing and working on a show for July 4th. So I will keep you posted.

signed,
E

2008-05-05T20:27:00.000-07:00

music she done left me and came back to me, I want to pursue her but just too cloudy for me. that is my quote of the day. I leave it up to you to try and figure it out. I have a way with words, you know slick with the sayings. My dad always you should write poetry you're something like Jay... man keep doing your thing. I take art as my poetic outlook ya dig. I was engaged for 3 years in high school, and I tied the knot in august of 06. Just a little hint for those of you who didn't catch it, I started seriously pursing music around that time.

I want to shout out some people that I am working with.

GinaRe Womack check her out her music is hot.
ChiZe Capone we started up The Unsigned Buzz blog which link can be found on the right side of your screen.
Brooke Taylor, I have to get her link up here now.

thats all for now..If I missed you I will be sure to catch you next time around.

SO

2008-05-04T14:28:00.000-07:00

It has been some time since I have posted something up here for ya'll. Things aren't really moving slow its just planning the next moves. Working on some shows that will be coming up, and looking for producers to work with. So i am planning out the Revolution part three. So keep tuned in to it.

E

BK Stylez holding it down

2008-04-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

Shout out to Bk Stylez in Australia show hosted this event. The show ended already it like 4 in the morning over there.

Epidemik and GinaRe Womack on Par-City Radio on the Lockdown on Mywcwp.com

2008-04-26T22:43:00.000-07:00

The Radio was Dope as mentioned in the last Blog. It was crazy though even though I made that mistake on spelling epmk lol. Its a good feeling though you know keep on making moves. The whole team was on the radio. The three Rappin Lounge Execs EpidemiK, Major, and BK Stylz. Rappin Lounge is taking over you know, we the Quiet Storm. There will be more to come from GinaRe Womack got hot tracks cooking in the kitchen, and I am happy to say that she is down with us. We going to push hard and make sure your grandma's grandma know who she is. Now to all ya'll producers out there we need some hot tracks now you know. We are going for hits now. Par-City Be sure to check them out on myspace. You Can find them in the link towards the right of the screen underlinks. Check out the show and be sure to catch the next one. To do that though you have to stay tune to the site YA DIG!

I would also like to thank all the people that called in, and showing love. It is greatly appreciated.

Click here to check out the radio show.
Play the show

Just Got In Not too long ago...

2008-04-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

So tonight was good. Went Out to the college radio station at cw post campus for Long Island University. Will Nasty, Prolif and Young Live are cool dudes. It was dope to be on the show GinaRe it was hot. The video is coming soon though, and more will come later but right now I am really tired.

Peace,
E

Welcome To EpidemiK Online

2008-04-24T17:50:00.000-07:00

So you can expect to see more videos. Most of my post will mostly be video blogs, and rarely written. this is just to show my work and what I am up to.